Fear

Now you were alone

Wondering what the difference between alone and lonely even was

When you were at the one place where you could feel your tears

Always scared to lose your fears

No one is actually afraid of things, we’re just afraid of the fear itself. And fear is something that can be very treacherous. It shows you an illusion that is the complete opposite of your character. It knows all of your weaknesses and it also knows how to use them against you. My brother always told me this when I couldn’t sleep at night and would crawl into his bed, so he would protect me from the monsters under my bed. As a child I never quiet understood what he meant, but now as I am older and my fears changed, I believer every word he once told me. And it’s not only important to know that fear isn’t real, you also need to understand the power fear has when it comes to changing people. Fear stops you from doing things you really want, it stops you from getting to know so many different sides of life. And even though I know this and many of you probably know it too, we’re still letting fear rule our life. But what are we supposed to do about it? Fear is what makes us human. It’s what lets us survive. Because if we wouldn’t be afraid of things that are dangerous for us, what would stop us from doing them? So fear is necessary, not only for us but also for the universe.

Compass

The first thing you need to learn about life is that it’s a series of changes.

The second thing is that you are one human being of seven billion.

The third thing is that no one will ever be able to understand you like yourself.

I’ve always searched for some kind of compass that can lead me through my life. To help me make decisions that I don’t feel comfortable deciding. I get lost quite a lot, not only in the hallways of my school or searching for clothes in a store, but also in my head. Daydreaming probably is what I do 99% of my time and I don’t say it’s bad, you just have to learn to do both: Daydreaming and focusing on real life. Because if you lose focus on what is happening right in front of you then you won’t come far in life – at least that’s what my parents always tell me. I partly agree with them. Imagination is important, in so many ways. It can help you to get a totally new perspective on things and it can make your life so much more interesting and special. Focusing on things like grades in school and keeping your social contacts alive on the other hand, stops you from drowning in loneliness. And believe me I know exactly how that feels. So balance is important. But there isn’t just one equation to find your balance – your compass. Every individual person on this planet has a different compass. The heart. No matter how far you drift away, it will always lead you back to the place you belong. And even though it isn’t always easy to completely trust it, I think we all really need to learn to listen to it more carefully. Because our head may be the thing that leads us through our real life, but our heart is what leads us through our imagination.

Goodbye 2016 🌈

Best movie of the year: Captain America 3 (Civil War)/ Phantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them

Favorite song of the year: too many 😂

Most embarrassing moment of the year: I ran into a door at school and my crush saw it 😂

Best moment of the year: Seing 5SOS live 😍

Biggest lesson learned this year: You have to work really hard to reach your goals

Best conversation you had this year: midnight phone call with my best friend 

Most memorable trip of the year: weekend trip with my whole family ❤️

Newsworthy event with the most impact: the murder of Christina Grimmie, I cried for weeks

Most overrated celebrity story this year: everything taylor swift, kanye west and kim kardashian related

Best thing you did for someone else this year: surprising my internet bestie on her birthday ❤️

Hardest you laughed this year: playing a game on playstation with my best friend and we had no idea how it works 😂

Best piece of advice you got this year: Don’t be so hard on yourself 🦄

Day this past year you’d live over and over: May 25th 😍

Favorite holiday memory of the year: Christmas morning with my family and our burned pancakes 😂

Most memorable moment in pop culture: too many good people in the showbuisness died this year and the release of Shawn Mendes’ 2nd album