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Fear

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Now you were alone

Wondering what the difference between alone and lonely even was

When you were at the one place where you could feel your tears

Always scared to lose your fears

No one is actually afraid of things, we’re just afraid of the fear itself. And fear is something that can be very treacherous. It shows you an illusion that is the complete opposite of your character. It knows all of your weaknesses and it also knows how to use them against you. My brother always told me this when I couldn’t sleep at night and would crawl into his bed, so he would protect me from the monsters under my bed. As a child I never quiet understood what he meant, but now as I am older and my fears changed, I believer every word he once told me. And it’s not only important to know that fear isn’t real, you also need to understand the power fear has when it comes to changing people. Fear stops you from doing things you really want, it stops you from getting to know so many different sides of life. And even though I know this and many of you probably know it too, we’re still letting fear rule our life. But what are we supposed to do about it? Fear is what makes us human. It’s what lets us survive. Because if we wouldn’t be afraid of things that are dangerous for us, what would stop us from doing them? So fear is necessary, not only for us but also for the universe.

Goodbye 2016 🌈

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Best movie of the year: Captain America 3 (Civil War)/ Phantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them

Favorite song of the year: too many 😂

Most embarrassing moment of the year: I ran into a door at school and my crush saw it 😂

Best moment of the year: Seing 5SOS live 😍

Biggest lesson learned this year: You have to work really hard to reach your goals

Best conversation you had this year: midnight phone call with my best friend 

Most memorable trip of the year: weekend trip with my whole family ❤️

Newsworthy event with the most impact: the murder of Christina Grimmie, I cried for weeks

Most overrated celebrity story this year: everything taylor swift, kanye west and kim kardashian related

Best thing you did for someone else this year: surprising my internet bestie on her birthday ❤️

Hardest you laughed this year: playing a game on playstation with my best friend and we had no idea how it works 😂

Best piece of advice you got this year: Don’t be so hard on yourself 🦄

Day this past year you’d live over and over: May 25th 😍

Favorite holiday memory of the year: Christmas morning with my family and our burned pancakes 😂

Most memorable moment in pop culture: too many good people in the showbuisness died this year and the release of Shawn Mendes’ 2nd album 


Q&A

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If you could date one male book character in real life, who would it be? Either Julien (Kuss des Dämons), Zed (Finding Sky), Hector (Starcrossed) or Noah (Mara Dyer Chronicles). They are four of my all time favorite male book characters and I wish I could really date them irl 🙂

Name three book characters you identify yourself with: Katy (Lux Series) because of her passionate love for books and writing; Finch/Violet (All The Bright Places) because they think a lot, live in their own world and have a really special way to express themselves; Julian (The Dark Artifices) because he is very caring and creative and always tries to see the good in people ♥

Name some of your all time favorite albums: Vessel/Blurryface (Twenty One Pilots); Handwritten/Illuminate (Shawn Mendes); That’s The Spirit (Bring Me The Horizon); Demi (Demi Lovato); Back From The Edge (James Arthur); EVOLution (Sabrina Carpenter); Blue Neighbourhood (Troye Sivan); 5 Seconds Of Summer/Sounds Good Feels Good (5SOS); Nine Track Mind (Charlie Puth); Update: Divide (Ed Sheeran), Future Hearts (All Time Low), Don’t Panic: It’s longer now (All Time Low)

Last book you bought? I actually went shopping with my best friend today and bought two new books 🙂 Oblivion (Jennifer L. Armentrout) and Holding Up The Universe (Jennifer Niven)

The very first book you read and that made you fall in love with reading? Beautiful Creatures (Kami Garica and Margaret Stohl)

Name a song that reminds you of another period of your life: Cough Syrup, I used to listen to the Glee version of this song a lot when I suffered from Depression. And I actually still love to listen to this song, because it reminds me of the fact that we can all survive dark times even if it may not seem like we can 🙂

Do you love your favorite book couple or your favorie tv couple more? That’s really hard for me to decide. So there are Stiles and Lydia on the one hand and Julien and Dawn on the other hand. And even though I love love love Stydia, I have to chose Julien and Dawn. In my opinion, there is no one in the entire “world” who loves someone as much as Julien loves Dawn. 

First person you’ve ever obsessed over? Jess from Gilmore Girls and probably a lot of other people I don’ remember 🙂

Something you hate about a fandom you’re in? This happens in nearly every fandom I’m in, but it currently happened in the Teen Wolf and Riverdale fandom: Hate between the different ships. Stydia vs. Stalia and Beronica vs. Jughead. It’s okay if you don’t ship the same couples as I do, but don’t be rude about it.

Any upcoming concerts? Shawn Mendes and Ariana Grande. I’m also hoping that James Arthur will announce a world tour for this year 🙂

First thing you notice when you meet someone? Their eyes and their smile.

Favorite song at the moment? Either “Sign Of The Times” by Harry Styles or “Paralyzed” by NF ♥ But my favorite song changes nearly every day 🙂