The Finally Fall Tag

I know I’m late with this tag, but I just carved pumpkins for Halloween and was in the right mood to do it now 🙂

1. In fall, the air is crisp and clear: name a book with a vivid setting.

Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo. This is not only my all time favorite book ever, but the writing is so good that you see its’ setting right before your eyes. Every place described in this book comes to life just by reading about it.

2. Nature is beautiful… but also dying: name a book that is beautifully written, but also deals with a heavy topic like loss or grief.

A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness. In my opinion there is no other book that would fit this category better. A Monster Calls is a piece of art and you should definitely read it without getting too much info about the plot. Trust me, this is a book that needs to surprise you and tell you its’ story alone.

3. Fall is back to school season: share a non-fiction book that taught you something new.

Heavier Than Heaven: The Biography of Kurt Cobain by Charles R. Cross. In my class Singer&Songwriter, I wrote my final paper about the 27 Club with focus on Kurt Cobain and read this book to get to know more about his life. At the end, I was not only totally in love with his character but also with his story. It broke my heart but opened my eyes in so many ways.

4. In order to keep warm, it’s good to spend some time with the people we love: name a fictional family/household/friend-group that you’d like to be a part of.

This was the hardest question for me, because there are so many bookworlds that I would like to live in. But I had to follow my heart and go with Six of Crows. Of course, only when I get to (sorry Inej) marry Kaz ♥ I would love to have such a close group of friends that you can do literally everything with and to have the knowledge that it will never get boring.

5. Fall is the perfect time for some storytelling by the fireside: share a book wherein somebody is telling a story.

To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee. This is one of the few classics I really love: deep storyline, lovely characters and a real surprise. You should read it as it can not only teach you a lot but also lets you see how lucky you are with the life you are living.

6. The nights are getting darker: share a dark, creepy read.

Definitely It by Stephen King, which is actually the book that I’m currently reading. I can’t really say much about it, but if you like dark and creepy books you should think about giving it a try.

7. The days are getting colder: name a short, heartwarming read that could warm up somebody’s cold and rainy day.

Finding Sky by Joss Stirling. At least three times a year I find myself reading this book. It’s not my favorite book ever, but something about it just always warms my heart and makes me happy – no matter how sad I am. It really makes you believe in real love again ♥

8. Fall returns every year: name an old favorite that you’d like to return to soon.

I really want to re-read the Heroes of Olympus series by Rick Riordan. He’s the author that started my reading obsession nearly 9 years ago and I still love to read his books and then re-read them a million times!

9. Fall is the perfect time for cozy reading nights: share your favorite cozy reading “accessories”!

That’s easy. Either a warm and cozy blanket or a cup of hot chocolate. Especially around fall and winter, I need it very comfy when I read 🙂

TV Series I Watch(ed)

[I probably forgot a few, because as you can see I’ve watched many different tv series in my life so far. If you have any good recommendations on which show to start next, just leave them in a comment below 🙂]

Still Watching (=series I’m currently watching):

  • Teen Wolf (waiting for season 6B)
  • The 100
  • Supergirl
  • Agents Of Shield
  • Riverdale (waiting for season 2)
  • Criminal Minds (waiting for season 13)
  • Stranger Things (waiting for season 2)
  • Shameless
  • 13 Reasons Why (waiting for season 2)
  • Hawaii Five-0
  • Shadowhunters

Finished Watching (=series that don’t air anymore):

  • Gilmore Girls
  • The Vampire Diaries
  • Pretty Little Liars
  • O.C. California
  • The Carrie Diaries
  • Containment
  • Crisis
  • Glee
  • Red Band Society
  • Make It Or Break It
  • Seventh Heaven
  • Charmed
  • Castle

Stopped Watching (=series I won’t continue):

  • Grey’s Anatomy (watched 11 seasons)
  • Reign (watched 2 seasons)
  • The Originals (watched 2 seasons)
  • Game Of Thrones (watched 3 seasons)
  • Navy CIS (watched 11 seasons)
  • The Walking Dead (watched 3 seasons)
  • Scream (watched 1 season)
  • The Next Step (watched 3 seasons)
  • Arrow (watched 3 seasons)
  • Switched At Birth (watched nearly 2 seasons)
  • Once Upon A Time (watched a few episodes)
  • Witches Of East End (watched nearly 2 seasons)
  • Falling Skies (watched 4 seasons)
  • Heroes (watched 2 seasons)

Paused Watching (=series I will continue someday):

  • Empire (watched 1 season)
  • Quantico (watched a few episodes)
  • Prison Break (watched 1 season)
  • Sherlock (watched the first two episodes)
  • Chicago Fire (watched 3 seasons)
  • American Horror Story (watched 2 seasons)
  • Supernatural (watched nearly 6 seasons)

Want to watch (=series I’ve never watched before):

  • Lucifer
  • How To Get Away With Murder
  • Dexter
  • Chicago P.D.
  • Fear The Walking Dead (because Daniel Sharman is part of season 3 ♥)
  • Dark Matter

Book Tag: The Mid-Year Book Freakout Tag [2017]

Best Book You’ve Read So Far

Six Of Crows (Leigh Bardugo): This book is not only the best book I’ve read so far this year, but probably also one of the best books I’ve read so far IN MY LIFE. The story is mind-blowing, the characters are so unique, the writing style is not only really touching and melodic but also very different – in a good way – to the writing styles I’m used to and even though it’s written from many different points of view, it never gets boring. Not even for one second. It’s also a book that will surprise you on every page, when you think you know what will happen the book will prove you wrong.

Best Sequel You’ve Read So Far

Crooked Kingdom (by Leigh Bardugo): You should’ve expected this after my last answer 🙂

New Release You Haven’t Read Yet, But Want To

Lord Of Shadows (by Cassandra Clare): I’m dying to read this book, I just wasn’t in the right mood for it yet.

Most Anticipated Release for the Second Half of the Year

The Shaw Confessions: The Becoming of Noah Shaw (by Michelle Hodkin)

Language Of Thorns (by Leigh Bardugo)

Biggest Disappointment

Holding Up The Universe (by Jennifer Niven): I fell in love with Jennifer Niven after reading “All The Bright Places” at the beginning of last year and I had really high expectations reading HUTU and it just didn’t live up to them. I don’t think it’s a bad book, it’s just not the right one for me.

Biggest Surprise

Normally I only buy books that I know I will like, so this is hard. But I guess “Anna and the French Kiss” was my biggest suprise this year. I only bought it, because I needed a light read after all the heavy fantasy and contemporary books I’ve read. But it actually turned out amazing and I’m so in love with the story, especially the relationship between Anna and Étienne was great.

Favourite New Author

Leigh Bardugo or Michelle Hodkin: As you can probably tell by my last few posts are the Mara Dyer Chronicles and The Six Of Crows Duology the best books I’ve read this year and I was astonished by both of their writing styles.

Newest Fictional Crush

Étienne St. Clair (Anna and the French Kiss); but I’ll never love any male book character more than Julien Alexandre Du Cranier ♥

Newest Favourite Character

Noah (Mara Dyer Chronicles); Kaz and Inej (Six Of Crows)

Book That Made You Cry

The Last Star (by Rick Yancey): For those of you who’ve read this book, probably know what made me cry so much. I just wanted the end to turn out differently.

Favourite Book to Film Adaptation

I haven’t really seen any good book to film adaptations this year, but the news that The Raven Boys will get a tv series made me extremly happen (of course under the condition that it will be as great as the books)

Most Beautiful Book You’ve Bought This Year

Percy Jackson: Greek Heroes (by Rick Riordan): I really love the illustrations in the book and the cover on the front and back is amazing as well ♥

What Book Do You Need to Read by the End of the Year?

Way too many books 😀

Top 10 Fantasy Book Series

❤❤❤❤❤ Obsessed

❤❤❤❤     Very good

❤❤❤         Good

❤❤             Okay

                 Not so good

  • Six Of Crows Duology


story: ❤❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Kaz, Jesper and Inej]

writing: ❤❤❤❤❤

  • Mara Dyer Chronicles


story: ❤❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Noah, Jamie and Mara]

writing: ❤❤❤❤❤

  • Violet Eden Chronicles


story: ❤❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Phoenix and Spence]

writing: ❤❤❤❤

  • Lux series


story: ❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Katy, Daemon and Luc]

writing: ❤❤❤❤❤

  • Heroes Of Olympus/Percy Jackson and the Olympians

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story: ❤❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Percy and Nico]

writing: ❤❤❤❤❤

  • Kuss des Dämons (german series)


story: ❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Julien and Olek]

writing: ❤❤❤❤❤

  • The Mortal Instruments/The Dark Artifices

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story: ❤❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Raphael, Sebastian and Alec / Julian and Ty]

writing: ❤❤❤❤❤

  • The Raven Boys series


story: ❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤❤ [Favorite characters: Noah and Ronan]

writing: ❤❤❤❤

  • Starcrossed series/Hush, Hush series

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story: ❤❤❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤ [Favorite characters: Hector / Patch]

writing: ❤❤❤❤

  • Fallen series


story: ❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤❤❤ [Favorite character: Cam]

writing: ❤❤❤

  •  Shadow Falls Camp


story: ❤❤❤

characters: ❤❤ [Favorite characters: Perry and Lucas]

writing: ❤❤❤❤

Favorite book and tv couples

[These aren’t all official couples, but they are still my OTP’s]

Book couples:

  • Julien and Dawn (Kuss des Dämons [german series])
  • Roth and Layla (Dark Elements)
  • Noah and Mara (The Mara Dyer Chronicles)
  • Daemon and Katy (Lux Series)
  • Ben and Cassie (The Fifth Wave)
  • Zed and Sky (Finding Sky)
  • Phoenix and Violet (Violet Eden Chronicles)
  • Percy and Annabeth (Percy Jackson and the Olympians)
  • Alec and Magnus (The Mortal Instruments)
  • Julian and Emma (The Dark Artifices)

TV couples:

  • Francis and Mary (Reign)
  • Stiles and Lydia (Teen Wolf)
  • Bellamy and Clarke (The 100)
  • Cole and Phoebe (Charmed)
  • Mickey and Ian (Shameless)
  • Jess and Rory (Gilmore Girls)
  • Ward and Skye (Agents Of Shield)
  • Jughead and Betty (Riverdale)
  • Mon-El and Kara (Supergirl)
  • Seth and Summer (O.C. California)
  • Mason and Cory (Teen Wolf)
  • Kol and Davina (The Originals)
  • Stefan and Elena (The Vampire Diaries)

updated: 19/07/17

Favorite female book characters

[Contains spoilers for these book series: The Mara Dyer Chronicles and The Fifth Wave]

It was a lot harder for me to create this list than the one for the male book characters as there aren’t that many female characters that I love, but here are my top 8:


  • Mara Dyer (The Mara Dyer Chronicles)

Mara is leading my top 10, because I can understand how it is to have a dark side and be misunderstood. She is constantly trying to gain control over her powers so she wouldn’t hurt anyone and when she decides that she doesn’t want to do that anymore, I’m actually quiet proud of her. I can understand if others don’t like her, because she is a little bit scary and cruel, but life didn’t quiet gave her the chance to turn out any other way. She isn’t this typical nice, innocent girl that falls in love with a bad boy or who evolves to be this strong female character to protect others. She is, like they said in the books, an anti-hero and this fact is what really made me addicted to this series and her character.

  • Cassie Sullivan (The Fifth Wave)

She’s a really good example for a bad ass female character, something I think should be more common in books. Cassie doesn’t need a boy to protect her or to handle things for her. She does everything by herself and even though she lost her parents and her brother was taken, she never really broke down. Her relationship with Sam as well as with Ben is my favorite thing in the books (and I’m still extremly sad that she died at the end and that she and Ben didn’t end up together). Cassie sacrifices her life (instead of letting someone else take her place) at the end of the last book to save her loved ones and for that she will always be my inspiration and hero. The only one you should rely on is yourself!

  • Katy Swartz (Lux Series)

Her passion for books and just the fact that I can relate to her in so many ways makes me love her so much as a character. She’s strong and independent, but also clumsy and vulnerable. I mean, she never lets anyone treat her badly, but she wasn’t a born fighter or supernatural creature either. At the end of the series, you can see how much she truely has evolved and I live for her fun fights with Daemon as well as for her friendship with Dee. She is also one of the few female book characters who isn’t descibed as abnormal perfect and beautiful, which I really like. The most relatable female character of all fictional books I’ve read until now, for sure.

  • Sky Bright (Finding Sky)

What fascinates me about Sky the most is how she handles her broken soul and her tragic past. She is literally a mess when she meets Zed and he helps her to not overcome her past but to make it a part of her that makes her so much stronger. And even though she never got to know love, she is one of the most lovable and caring female characters I got to know, which I find really surprising and different.

  • Emma Carstairs (The Dark Artifices)/ Blue Sargent (The Raven Boys)

Emma and Blue are both really though and strong, even though it might not seem like they are. They have no problem with leading others or proving to everyone around them that they are independent and old enough to make their own decisions and fight for what they believe in. Emma’s relationship with Julian and Blue’s relationship with Gansey and the rest of the Raven boys show their character really well and you can see that they have no problem keeping up with the male characters.

  • Lena Duchannes (Beautiful Creatures)

Lena was the first female character I fell in love with. The constant inner fight between good and bad she had to lead, really impressed me. She is a really complex character and her love for books, music and poems made it easy for me to relate to her. To save the one she loves, she would sacrifice everything even her own life.

  • Lucy Pevensie (Chronicles Of Narnia)

Narnia doesn’t really fit in with the rest of the books, but I needed to mention Lucy in this list as Narnia is one of my favorite childhood novels. I always wanted to find a secret door to another world too. Lucy grows up in the shadow of her bigger sister and finds a way to accept herself and the fact that she isn’t Susan. She starts out as this little, curious girl who transforms over the course of the books into this grown up, brave and beautiful woman. Her imagination is what lead everyone to Narnia and it’s what makes Lucy herself and somehow I believe that my imagination is the most important part of myself as well.

Lifeguide For Fangirls (1)

So I wrote this for one of my tumblrs a while ago, but I wanted to post it here too ♥ And I’m already working on a part 2.

When you fall in love with a person that you know you can’t have, that’s always hard. When the person doesn’t even know you exist while you are dreaming of him every minute of the day, that’s even harder. Seeing him with girls that are way prettier and talented than you are, that’s the point where you break. But it’s not your fault that you like him so much. It’s not your fault that he puts your expectations of a boyfriend too high for any of the “real” boys to reach them. And it’s not your fault that you can’t stop having hope for something that will never be. But what do you do when you’re in such a position? It’s not like there’s a life guide for fangirls who fell in love with their favorite band member. No, you’re stuck with all those feelings and problems all by yourself with no one to help you. I mean sure you can just hide in your room forever, listening to their music and reading fanfics that just make everything worse, but that wouldn’t be so productive. Becoming a stalker and making plans with your internet besties how to kidnap him, isn’t a great idea either. So what do you do? Those feelings won’t disappear within a few days, they’re real feelings. At least that’s what you think, but let’s be honest here, from one fanatic fangirl to another: You can’t fall in love with a person you never really talked to. I know hearing the truth hurts, but I never said that we should think logical here. The word fangirl is enough to cancel the word logical in the context. Everything a fangirl does isn’t logical, so who cares about the truth, am I right? So were exactly at the point we started at. Still alone, losing ourselves in feelings we can’t describe. In situations like this, where my fangirl side or whatever I’m supposed to call it, takes over my body, my mind and my heart, that’s the moments where I should probably reach out to my real friends, the non-fangirls. They should be able to keep me grounded, right? Wrong. I’m really sorry to disappoint you, but there is no way that they’ll understand even the slightest part of what you are going through. Screw ex boyfriends and crushes that didn’t turn into boyfriends that is nothing compared to your situation. Oh wait, I forgot to mention the best thing: Friends who have a boyfriend and a real, good working relationship, because these friends are the worst. I mean there you are with your broken heart, with the desire to have a boyfriend and then they show up and just be completely happy 24/7 and because you are good friend and you love them you listen to all their “Oh my god, did you see what Jake got me?!” and “OMG, how cute on a scale from 1 to 10 do we look on this photo?!” while you just want to punch them right in their face. But let’s get back to business here. We still haven’t found a solution for our problem. So we were able to exclude asking non-fangirls for help, kidnapping the love of your life and laying on your bed waiting for a miracle to happen from our list. So before we go on, I want to get a little more serious here for a minute and talk about another way you’re not getting rid of the feelings you have for him and that is to ignore the real world. I did that a long time over and I sometimes still have the habit to just live in my dream world and try to have nothing to do with real people and so on. It’s really not healthy if you do it a lot, because it can lead to depression and self-harming which is never a way. I had depressions and anxiety a long time over, because I wasn’t feeling comfortable in my own body and everything was just too much for me to handle. I always compared myself to girls who were prettier, skinnier or just girls in general that had a chance in dating that specific band member I had feelings for. I would go to school, come straight back home and would spent the rest of the day just watching TV series, YouTube videos or reading books. I would do anything that would stop me from thinking about my real life. Being bullied in school, wasn’t particularly a big help. So please never do that, you’re perfect the way you are and even if you won’t believe me now, I promise that someday you will believe it. I tried really hard to lose weight, because I just wanted to be more like them, you know? But I noticed really quickly that I lost my will to live through all that. So I asked myself what is more important: Being happy or being skinny? [Don’t get me wrong, there are probably a million people out there who can be both, but for me it just didn’t work out.] I chose being happy and after a time I got used to not being a perfect and skinny girl. This road from suffering under depression and anxiety to finally being happy and feeling comfortable in my own body took me years, so take your time. Self-confidence is something that needs time to evolve. But just so you know, you can always write me if you want my advice or if you need someone to listen. I understand what you are going through and I’m here. It’s really hard for me to write about all of this, so can we please go back to the easy stuff? Thank you. You know what I just thought about, why don’t we all just form a support group for fangirls, where everyone can talk to people who understand them. I mean that sounds like a great idea, right? Right. But what if you met another fangirl in the group that likes the same band member? Let’s just say: Welcome to World War 3! I mean no offense but fangirls are the worst people to have an argument with. We always get offended about everything, we always need everything to happen the way we want it and the worst case scenario: Somebody isn’t our opinion, doesn’t ship our OTP or loves the same celebrity. You know these special days where shops offer you that you can get everything you can grab for free? Just imagine that the really gorgeous dress that everyone wants to have is the celebrity and that the fangirls are the customers. Do you see what I see? I thought so. So we can exclude support groups for fangirls from our list too. Let’s go on with another possible way: Falling in love with a boy you met in real life. I mean the possibility of that to happen is like one to a billion, but what if the luck is on your side for once? What if you met somebody who actually is able to live up to your expectations? Somebody who doesn’t live on the other side of the world? What if that really happens? I hope that there are still some dreamers out there, but when it comes to real life relationships then I’m definitely one of those who gave up hope. You heard right: I’M A HOPELESS CASE. No boy will ever fall in love with me, so it’s just normal for me to fall in love with a celebrity who will never reject me, because he doesn’t even know I dream of him every second of every day in my life. But that’s not true either, because he can reject me in an indirect way and that is the worst possible outcome of my situation. Let me introduce you to my worst case scenario: HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. I had this scenario once and I can tell you that I felt a part of me dying when I read online that he “made his relationship with (…) official”. I just wanted to throw my phone against the next wall and scream. You can say that he was my first real celebrity crush and to be honest is the one I had after him still my current one. Sure there were some short crushes here and there, but these two they just stuck with me the whole time over. You probably think that I’m a lunatic for giving these feelings so much meaning, but for me that’s just what they were/are. So here I am, still feeling attached to my second celebrity crush after the first one broke my heart. [NEWSFLASH: HE STILL HAS THAT GIRLFRIEND. AND SHE PROBABLY IS A NICE HUMAN BEING, BUT I STILL HATE HER. SORRY FOR THAT.] Description of my current state: I started writing this at 1am, because I couldn’t sleep. And when I can’t sleep then I feel lonely. And when I feel lonely then I start to think of all the things that make me so different from the people around me and I don’t always mean different in a good way. So I started this little rant at 1 am and somehow my feelings took over my brain and it turned out to be so much longer than I expected it to be. I’m not even sure if anybody will ever read this but if you do then I just want to tell you some things:

  1. Give yourself all the time you need. And I not only mean give yourself all the time you need to accept yourself, but also when it comes to getting rid of feelings you actually don’t want to feel. There is no way that you can rush out of them, because it’s just natural for you to try to hold on to them. They mean something to you and no one will lose something that means something to them. And believe me one day they will be gone, but it might take you a while to get there.
  2. When you are in a situation where you feel like you’re losing your touch to reality then turn to someone for help. Sometimes it doesn’t even seem like something bad, but it can easily turn out like that. No matter how miserable you are feeling and how hopeless everything seems to be, believe I’ve been there and it gets better. It really does, but not yet. And you won’t get through it all by yourself. That’s just not how it works.
  3. You know what I do when I feel like I’m going back to my old ways/habits? I write. I always have my little journey around or when I’m at home I have my laptop to write on. For me writing is a way to not only express my feelings but also to work through them. I understand when you aren’t able to talk to other people about it yet, so just write it down to somewhat talk to yourself about it. Who knows maybe what you are writing down now will help someone else later on? Because it’s always easy to learn from experiences other people made.
  4. Celebrity crushes are totally normal, so is the life of a fangirl. Don’t ever let someone tell you it isn’t. My friends used to tell me at every possible moment that I’m crazy for being so in love with bands, TV shows, books and so on. But they only say that, because they can’t understand and you aren’t able to explain it to them. Either you were born a fangirl or you weren’t, that’s just how it is. And to honest, life without all those things that only fangirls experience would be totally boring, am I right?